Assalammualaikum
HI
Setelah dua hari ini aku rasa bermuram durja
tidur bangun aku asyik la scroll baca balik old text milik dia kat fb Bingung aku..
hmm
eh bahagia nya rasa aku dulu
ada orang concern really concern
call most of the day and night
really taking good care of me,
asking about my work journey
that time i was really struggling with interview and all that
fell down on the street just because of went for interview
he really concerned of me that time. sharing most of the history background of me
even though that time i was really hide my self from everyone.
Hmm.
happy play games together.
and He become my mentor,
guard and guide me,
from anybody
And most of the team games know both of us.
as a couple
ahhh happy moment
But itu happy side
Just realized dulu aku tak berapa nak layan hati dan perasaan dia
most of the time when he started to talk about perasaan
im deny it
im interrupted with new topic until he bored and forget what he about to ask,.
hmm until he label me ?(tak ada perasaan)
hmm .
To be honest.,
Aku ada perasaan dekat dia
aku teringin nak menyayangi dia
aku nak hidup dengan dia
aku sudi untuk kahwin dengan dia 2 tahun lagi ( as per him)
hmm
but that time i was so careful with my heart 1000% extra careful
i cant just let him play with my heart
More over , dia curang dengan aku ?
i dont know weather suitable or not ME to labelled him as curang hahah
hmm
i hate if someone lied to me,
that what he done.
He lying.
hmm
he lied to me.
he texted with another girl.
and aa i dont wanna say much about this
but its really broke my heart
some more that time my brother has blocked wifi.
I was unable to connect wifi
and got 1 time my pc cant on at all for long time.
that why we are apart
i think so..
Hmm .
but something has across my mind,.
i think have 1 issue that I was wrong sending the SMS.
im about to sent to my Friend but i was sent to him
about he putus tunang just because of me.
but i wont believe,
i wont believe it till now,
Ya Allah cuma satu je aku pinta kali ini,.
if dia benar benar jodoh aku satu kan la hati kami
hmm dia pernah menangis hanya untuk membukti kan dia tak pernah menipu aku
tapi hati aku keras sgt saat itu sampaikan aku langsung tak percaya
WHY i have to wait for 5 years to be contacted with him again ?
why ?
why before this he never came across on my mind
WHY ?
Why he didnt showed up in my dreams and my life.
why only yesterday ?
WHY ? *Crying
ada hikmah ke semua ini ?
im just missing him
that all.
i missed all our moment.
i dont put high expectation on u any more.
I just wanna leave that world . i dont want to turned back again
I leave you i hope you in happiness.
I dont want to make you disappointed again and again.
HI
Setelah dua hari ini aku rasa bermuram durja
tidur bangun aku asyik la scroll baca balik old text milik dia kat fb Bingung aku..
hmm
eh bahagia nya rasa aku dulu
ada orang concern really concern
call most of the day and night
really taking good care of me,
asking about my work journey
that time i was really struggling with interview and all that
fell down on the street just because of went for interview
he really concerned of me that time. sharing most of the history background of me
even though that time i was really hide my self from everyone.
Hmm.
happy play games together.
and He become my mentor,
guard and guide me,
from anybody
And most of the team games know both of us.
as a couple
ahhh happy moment
But itu happy side
Just realized dulu aku tak berapa nak layan hati dan perasaan dia
most of the time when he started to talk about perasaan
im deny it
im interrupted with new topic until he bored and forget what he about to ask,.
hmm until he label me ?(tak ada perasaan)
hmm .
To be honest.,
Aku ada perasaan dekat dia
aku teringin nak menyayangi dia
aku nak hidup dengan dia
aku sudi untuk kahwin dengan dia 2 tahun lagi ( as per him)
hmm
but that time i was so careful with my heart 1000% extra careful
i cant just let him play with my heart
More over , dia curang dengan aku ?
i dont know weather suitable or not ME to labelled him as curang hahah
hmm
i hate if someone lied to me,
that what he done.
He lying.
hmm
he lied to me.
he texted with another girl.
and aa i dont wanna say much about this
but its really broke my heart
some more that time my brother has blocked wifi.
I was unable to connect wifi
and got 1 time my pc cant on at all for long time.
that why we are apart
i think so..
Hmm .
but something has across my mind,.
i think have 1 issue that I was wrong sending the SMS.
im about to sent to my Friend but i was sent to him
about he putus tunang just because of me.
but i wont believe,
i wont believe it till now,
Ya Allah cuma satu je aku pinta kali ini,.
if dia benar benar jodoh aku satu kan la hati kami
hmm dia pernah menangis hanya untuk membukti kan dia tak pernah menipu aku
tapi hati aku keras sgt saat itu sampaikan aku langsung tak percaya
WHY i have to wait for 5 years to be contacted with him again ?
why ?
why before this he never came across on my mind
WHY ?
Why he didnt showed up in my dreams and my life.
why only yesterday ?
WHY ? *Crying
ada hikmah ke semua ini ?
im just missing him
that all.
i missed all our moment.
i dont put high expectation on u any more.
I just wanna leave that world . i dont want to turned back again
I leave you i hope you in happiness.
I dont want to make you disappointed again and again.